Age

This weekend was both my mom's and dad's birthday. For some reason, my mom didn't accompany my dad and I to dinner on her birthday-my family is just a bit strange I guess. We talked a lot about his life, and I asked a lot of questions about what he wanted to do in the future. After the conversation, I realized that at my age, its easy to believe in existentialist ideas but hard to live those ideas.

At this age, it's hard to have a purpose when we all are so focused on the future. It's difficult to truly live out a lifestyle that engages "Man's true purpose" when everyone is trying to get into college to get a job to get money. I feel so focused on what's happening to me now and what might lie in my future to really live in a philosophical way. Looking at my dad, who's already past the unforeseen future of his life, I can see how being older brings an entirely different perspective on life.

I guess this simple talk and subtle realization made me see a lot. Lately, I've been trying so hard to look at life through the truest lens I could find, which for me has taken the form of not being fixated on any lens at all. However, I think that it's impossible to not take stock in any lens, and therefore its inevitable that I contradict myself in the future.

But then again, maybe this is all just some transient lens I am seeing through.